A moment in time, a serendipitous connection to lift my spirits.
I took a moment out of respect for my father, to go and sit at Sant’Agnese in Agone church. An elaborate historical church at the well known Piazza Navonna. I make reference to this church in your free download, “Top 10 “Off-the-beaten-Track” spots to visit in Rome” (download here). Just a heads up, it might challenge the keen photographer. For this blog though, it’s about a serendipitous moment that underpins the blogs in the Roam in Rome Connection portal.
Piazza Navona, as you may know, is a grand piazza with three incredible statues. The central one is simply enormous. The former chariot race stadium has an illustrious, awe-inspiring vibe to it. Especially early hours of the morning before the crowds. A fine piazza filled with musicians, artists, painters, sketchers, a balloon vendor and decibels to drown out your thinking. It’s full on. Step up a few steps into the unmarked church of S.Agnese in Agone. Silence. Time warps and you instantly forget the mayhem decibels outside. In fact the silence is almost deafening for a moment.
I went in to light a candle for my Dad. Today was the one year anniversary of his passing.
Tears just flowed down my cheeks, sadness and gratitude alike, as I recall the 10 years of dementia we nurtured him through. We journeyed with him through to his final week in hospital when his spirit gracefully released itself from his body. His time had come and while sad in one sense, it was also a joyous release for someone who’d lived their path in this life.
I lit the candle and in that moment, the flame reminded me of the golden energy I saw leave his body the night he passed. Sounds woo-woo I know but the gift was too significant for me to overlook it. That night, I just watched in awe and amazement. In that moment of his passing, my Dad taught me how much our spirit, our soul, enlivens our body. What a gift I received at such a significant moment in my father’s and family’s lives.
My connection with my intuition & the energy it connects me TO was strengthened that night.
As a little girl and into my teens, I always had a strong “energy” sense. Doesn’t matter what was said or not said, the FEEL I got in the circumstance spoke louder and more accurately. I learnt this was how my intuition operated in me, how we communicated I guess. So that helped me sense, always, the depths of Dad’s loving essence since a young age. Within his words and character, both amicable character and incredibly challenging character! Respectfully, he made me a better psychologist. So the night our father passed, he blessed me with a priceless visual gift of what I’d sensed and then visually SAW.
The candle flame connected me to him. I miss him in his body, but I feel his golden essence around me all the time. This time last year I was in Melbourne, Australia. When he passed, I felt his peaceful release and I also felt a door open in me. It was time I left Australia. So in my parents’ homeland of Italy, I got to honour the anniversary of his passing and his giving me a remarkable gift. The gift I’m now able to share with you. The gift of seeing how our spirit, our soul, our very essence, ENLIVENS the vehicle that carries it, our body.
But that’s not the serendipitous moment I want to share with you!
Sitting in Sant’Agnese church, for a moment I forgot the beauty of life and the amazing church I was in. Tears flowing as I only remembered the sadness in that moment. So the Universe “woke me up” out of the sad lull. I watched a young man right in my line of sight light a candle, I assume for a loved one, before he prayed soon after. But, before he placed down the candle, he grabbed his partners hand and inter-weaved her fingers in his so they could place the candle down together. What a beautiful act. He had silently said, “Let do it together”. So gentle yet powerful. I smiled, so deeply.
In his action, I awoke from my open eye lull and again saw the golden energy of the candle light, the essence that brings people alive. That essence not only shone in the flame of their candle, it shone more brightly in his gesture. The essence that had me serendipitously look up in that moment, to see his action, saying “Let’s do it together”.
You hear it often I know, but it’s so worth hearing over and over in our busy lives.
Don’t wait til someone’s dying day to see the LIVING light within their heart and soul. Even when they piss you off, as Dad did many a time. Through the shadow or the lull, THAT’s the time to find the part of them that WANTS to shine in loving and sharing. Difficult I know, but a worthy challenge in our relationships with others and with ourselves.
So thank you Dad for such an incredible visual gift, showing me that golden light that ENLIVENS our body, the essence that keeps means we’re together. Thank you to that young man at Sant’Agnese, whoever he was, that connected his essence with his partners so simply and powerfully, in his act of sharing. The candle flame for both of us that day was a symbol of connection & sharing together. The golden light of “Let’s do it together”.
What do you do in the spirit of “together” in your life? Do you have a special moment, that looked minor from the outside, but touched you deeply? If you’re happy to share, it’d be great to share together! Ok if you don’t want to share too, as long as you’re doing it together with the key people in your life, we’re golden!! www.facebook.com.roaminrome.